I want to be strong...

[Sister Anna]

Originally Posted by Mason

Earlier today i was reading on another forum about a girl who wanted to take up a religion, but she had a few beliefs that clashed with it, ones that would have stopped her from practising that faith. It seemed she didn't know if she could or wanted to give them up... In someone's reply they said "If you do seek God, you may be put in the position of having to dispense with some long cherished beliefs. That is how it is with God". This made me think about me and Islam, as i am in quite a similar position,... not knowing if i can detach myself from my original beliefs. I want to, because most of them don't make any sense and they leave me feeling very empty and worthless. I want to be strong and leave these wrong beliefs behind, but i don't know how, and i most certainly don't want to be living in denial.

There are some things i have found out about Islam that i wish i hadn't, because it makes me abit sad to think that its not as perfect as i had hoped. Though, i still want to learn more about it, and i really think i want to be a muslim. I hope i can be forgiven by Allah for being so very doubting and indecisive. Does anyone have any surjestion on how i should over come and learn to disbelieve my "basic beliefs"? I really don't want them anymore, i never did. I want to feel whole and content about what i believe, can anyone help me...?

Hi Mason,

I just wanted to say that I can understand your feelings and also I wanted you to know that I will be praying for you so that you will be guided by God to find the place where your heart is at peace and you can find a relationship with God.

[Mason]

Thats very nice of you Anna, Thanks ^_^

Though i don't feel exactly that way anymore,.. i said in there some where that i had found out some things i didn't like about islam, and as time has gone on i have found more. So i feel with everything that has happened (London bombings included) its not right for me to want to follow Islam anymore.

Though i still feel i want to find some form of relationship with God, so i am reading more about other religions now...

^_^