Please Lift Us Up

[InLove]

Hi--Peace to All Here

Thank you so much, everyone, again--what beautiful words you have given me to dwell on. I wonder if you know just how much they mean to me?

I have really enjoyed the past few days, being able to post again and make any kind of sense at all (of course, that is debatable--but then almost everything in CR is such, right? ). I still love this place!

I have had some private inquiries recently, and I have also neglected to answer some from way back. I do apologize, but all the meds made it real easy to overlook some things. Bringing this thread back up so that if I have missed answering anything about my health, it can be read here. I appreciate all the concern, and I am so grateful that it was o.k. that I brought it up here in the first place. I guess I know you, even though I don't know you? Sometimes it is easier to express thoughts and receive them in a setting like this, and sometimes I think I know some of you better than some of the people I see all the time. Okay--did that make sense?

Anyway, so you know (and so you can please continue to lift us up), all the chemo and radiation treatments have been over for a few weeks, and now the time has come for surgery. I do not yet know how extensive that surgery will be, but I don't think it is going to be minor--I am scheduled to be in the hospital for a few days next week.

Don't know just how much I will be posting before then (as this is a sweet addiction for me), but I am trying to concentrate on getting things ready around my home for some recovery time. Got to use that precious energy for this purpose right now. So, just in case I am outta here again for a while, don't forget me--when I come back, I expect to be intrigued all over again, alright? Okay.

Follow the light, even when it means greeting the darkness--love all around.

InPeace,
InLove

[lunamoth]

Best wishes InLove, you and yours continue to be in my prayers. Thank you for keeping us posted!

lunamoth

[wil]

Peace, Love and Light.

[Scarlet Pimpernel]

You are still in my prayers.

[InLove]

Hi, Peace to All Here—

Time to update this thread for my CR friends who don’t yet know, as well as to sort of “wrap things up” for future reference. I am overjoyed (as well as a bit cautious) when I tell you that my cancer is officially in remission. Once again, I thank every one of you who held me in your thoughts and prayers in your own various ways. I still have a few more weeks of recovery from surgery and all the treatments, but I am so looking forward to feeling better real soon—and just remembering to treasure every moment, even now.

I also want to extend an invitation to anyone here who may be going through a similar situation—I am here if you need to talk, or if you are looking for information about certain cancer treatment programs. I learned a lot about how to get help during this relatively short period of time since last December, and since my cancer was a pretty rare form, I learned something about the availability and feasability of clinical trials. Not that I am any kind of doctor or expert by any means—just that I might be able to point someone toward a useful resource. Anyway, I wanted to offer that (and somewhere in the annals of North Texas medicine, I am there, under “Anonymous”!) Just one thing—give me a couple of days to clear my private messages, as they are getting full again. I can’t stand to just trash them because there are so many lovely ones.

So slowly but surely, I get to return to whatever “normal” might be for me! Hope to be here more and more—and I need to get on with those writings I was about to start before all this happened. See y’all around the boards! (Yay!)

InPeace,
InLove

[wil]

Tis a blessing. Glad to have you back on your game...

[Scarlet Pimpernel]

Oh, hallelujah (and I mean that literally)! InLove, I am so happy to hear that!

[Vajradhara]

Namaste InLove,

you have my deepest concern for your wellbeing.

it is true that all beings cease to arise, the only question is when. i trust that you have taken advantage of this time to do what need be done.

if there is anything which i could do, on a personal level, please PM me.

metta,

~vajradhara

p.s. DOH!!@!!

i am more than pleased that your physical being is doing well!

[Jack Halyard]

Hi and Peace to Everyone.
I am resurrecting this thread through J.H. by proxy from my hospital room, using good old fashioned pen and paper. (At least, I think I am resurrecting it; I really have no way of knowing since I have no internet access here.

Funny how things happen, isn't it? I came to see the doc about four weeks ago and haven't gone home since! Not to worry though. The cancer has not returned. I am, however, experiencing complications from surgery, and they tell me I may be here for several more weeks. How d'ya like them apples? And just when I was planning my survivor wing-ding .

Well, I miss C.R. I thought of y'all during the summer solstice and tried to write a post then but I never finished it. So, happy belated solstice wishes to everyone and a safe and excellent Independence Day celebration for those of you in the U.S. I have a pretty good view of the city from my window here - maybe I can catch a nice fireworks display.

I hope everyone is doing well. I will try and check in again soon.

InPeace
InLove

[juantoo3]

Oh, InLove! You have been so missed around here! I am so sorry to hear of your turn of events, but I wish you well. With some people, you just know things will work out for the best. You are one of those kind of people. Do get well soon, and join us again. It isn't the same around here without you!

[Phyllis Sidhe_Uaine]

*Shadow Nightstalker returns to work on InLove and Jack Halyard, using everything he learned in Therapy Animal training to take their minds off of everything InLove's going through. The :kitty: stays, pretty much moving into his territory/assignment, only leaving to be discreet with the one thing he won't share with his assignments*

Your "sleek black beauty" is back and rarin' to go!

Phyllis Sidhe_Uaine

[lunamoth]

Hi Inlove, Oh, this is sad news. I just got back from a trip so I hope that means that by now you are further along the road to recovery. Thank you for keeping us posted via good old fashioned paper courier. My prayers are with you dear.

luna

[path_of_one]

So sorry to hear about the complications, InLove, but overjoyed to hear that your cancer is in remission! Somehow I missed that post before, and I wondered how you were doing.

I pray you get well soon so you can begin your survivor wing-ding!

I look forward to your posts once you are home.

[Vajradhara]

Namaste InLove,

thank you for your heartfelt post. i understand the difficultly in revealing that sort of personal information to, essentially, strangers.

If you haven't had a chance to read Stephen J. Goulds essay on his cancer diagnosis, i would heartily recommend it. a positive state of mind is very beneficial in this struggle.

http://www.cancerguide.org/median_not_msg.html

here's a snip:

My life has recently intersected, in a most personal way, two of Mark Twain's famous quips. One I shall defer to the end of this essay. The other (sometimes attributed to Disraeli), identifies three species of mendacity, each worse than the one before - lies, damned lies, and statistics.

Consider the standard example of stretching the truth with numbers - a case quite relevant to my story. Statistics recognizes different measures of an "average," or central tendency. The mean is our usual concept of an overall average - add up the items and divide them by the number of sharers (100 candy bars collected for five kids next Halloween will yield 20 for each in a just world). The median, a different measure of central tendency, is the half-way point. If I line up five kids by height, the median child is shorter than two and taller than the other two (who might have trouble getting their mean share of the candy). A politician in power might say with pride, "The mean income of our citizens is $15,000 per year." The leader of the opposition might retort, "But half our citizens make less than $10,000 per year." Both are right, but neither cites a statistic with impassive objectivity. The first invokes a mean, the second a median. (Means are higher than medians in such cases because one millionaire may outweigh hundreds of poor people in setting a mean; but he can balance only one mendicant in calculating a median).

you and yours are in my thoughts.

metta,

~v

[YO-ELEVEN-11]

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