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Bandit · 07-11-2005, 07:11 PM

there is an old movie called SPLENDOR IN THE GRASS.

i recommend it to anyone who has never seen it.
maybe not right now for you Path, but someday if you have never seen it.
while some things in life have closure, there are times there is not & there can actually be more strength in things that do not have closure. not sure why, it just is.

married 3 times, i know the difference now.

i like William Wordsworth a lot.

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Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind

I, Brian · 07-11-2005, 08:14 PM

Sincere best wishes to you, Kim - words are not always enough so please accept those instead - especially as there's no way I can match Wordsworth.

earl · 07-11-2005, 08:55 PM

So glad to hear there's a new dawn for you. Earl

truthseeker · 07-11-2005, 11:47 PM

Darling Path,

We are so young.
I saw this quote today. I don't know who said it but I remember the quote was, "In this world is a painful progress. We yearn for what is left behind, as we dream ahead."
Maybe the hardest part right now is learning to walk ahead alone. But if I may say a bit more, you'll come to know yourself without needing the help of those who know you - and that shall become the greatest love of all. I am so glad that you are looking forward to the future. Be sure to go through the waves of emotion thoroughly - that will keep you sane. Oh yeah... If you ever get lonely, scream at God. I think He likes it when you get feisty with Him every now and then.
We are so young. And these are the growing pains.
Thank you for sharing yourself.

Quahom1 · 07-12-2005, 12:26 AM

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Originally Posted by truthseeker

Darling Path,

We are so young.
I saw this quote today. I don't know who said it but I remember the quote was, "In this world is a painful progress. We yearn for what is left behind, as we dream ahead."
Maybe the hardest part right now is learning to walk ahead alone. But if I may say a bit more, you'll come to know yourself without needing the help of those who know you - and that shall become the greatest love of all. I am so glad that you are looking forward to the future. Be sure to go through the waves of emotion thoroughly - that will keep you sane. Oh yeah... If you ever get lonely, scream at God. I think He likes it when you get feisty with Him every now and then.
We are so young. And these are the growing pains.
Thank you for sharing yourself.

So true. Hot or Cold, God can use us. Luke warm, we're worthless to Him.

v/r

Q

I, Brian · 07-12-2005, 12:34 AM

Ok path, don't know if you've heard this before, but maybe worth repasting this short poem by Mary Stevenson anyway:

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One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”

Quahom1 · 07-12-2005, 01:16 AM

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Originally Posted by I, Brian

Ok path, don't know if you've heard this before, but maybe worth repasting this short poem by Mary Stevenson anyway:

Oh man, that is in my office, and on my wall at home...nice Brian.

v/r

Q

lunamoth · 07-12-2005, 01:47 AM

Dear Path,

You've been on my mind all day, and you've been in my prayers all day. I know it's probably hard to do even the normal things right now, but as you say it is all part of a new day and a new transformation. Here's a bit of a Psalm and a prayer I especially like.

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I waited patiently upon the LORD; he stooped to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the desolate pit, out of the mire and clay, he set my feet upon a high cliff and made my footing sure.

He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; many shall see, and stand in awe, and put their trust in the LORD. (Psalm 40:1-3)

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O God of peace, who hast taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength: By the might of thy Spirit lift us, we pray thee, to thy presence, where we may be still and know that thou are God; through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen. (BCP p. 832)

In the short time I've been able to get to know you from your writings here at CR I've come to know you as an amazingly clear-headed and strong person and I know these gifts will help you through this challenge. That which does not kill us makes us stronger

. You have fire in your soul and the Spirit in your heart. You'll be alright. As Truthseeker said, let yourself roll through the emotions that are to come, feel them and live through them, lean on God and lean on your friends, including those of us here.

In His Peace,
lunamoth

Quahom1 · 07-12-2005, 04:38 AM

Allow yourself to be shocked, then ANGRY. That is first and foremost. Then acknowledge that you are in denial, then understand your need to strike a deal (comprimise), finally acceptance. But realize that you will jump to any stage over and over again, until everything settles down.

That is the reality of loss. I speak the truth. But then friends come in to fill the gap a bit. That is also the truth.

Tell me, what would you have your friends pray? What is best for you? What might prevent this situation? Take this cup from you? How about...

"May the Good Lord Hold you both in the palm of His hand."

It is so hard, I know, and suspect others do too. No one can fix it. God fixes issues...not decisions between two people.

I truly am sorry for your loss.

v/r

Q

path_of_one · 07-15-2005, 06:59 AM

Thank you all for your prayers and support.

Q, yes, I pretty much just want people to pray for God's will to be done in my husband and I's lives, that He holds us in His mighty hand, and that come what may we both receive peace, acceptance, and joy for the journey.

I am open to where ever God sends me at this point, and I can only pray His will is revealed in my life.

Peace to you all, and my deepest thanks,
Path

17th Angel · 02-22-2008, 11:44 PM

Kim my sister, how we doing present day?

path_of_one · 02-23-2008, 12:09 AM

Alex, how you ever found this today of all days is a mystery to me. Do you have a little psychic gift there, or was it all one of those great moments of synchronicity?

My husband and I, back in 2005, separated and nearly divorced. It made us both stronger, different... we grew up in a way I don't think we ever would have without that pain, the time apart. Losing "us" caused each of us to find ourselves.

And then, after we each learned to lean on God by ourselves, we were given "us" back.

It has been the greatest miracle of my life, and about the hardest thing I have ever done- losing my marriage, and then falling back in love and climbing back into it. It required immense forgiveness on both of our parts and a lot of change. But, oh... it is a great joy. Somehow the people we became by fully realizing ourselves, by becoming independent from each other, came to find that they loved each other all the more.

As for today... this is the day before my tenth wedding anniversary. Ten years ago, I promised to love and cherish my husband for life. Somehow, God saw that promise through even we could not. The only explanation I have is our willingness to rest in God's hands, and God's willingness to let grace do what we could not.

(And somehow, I still ended up in the Northwest with my trees and greenery, and feeling so much better without the smog... God really does take care of it all!)

Thank you, Alex... Reminding me of this is a great gift.

Love to you, my brother-- you certainly shared it with me today,
Kim

17th Angel · 02-23-2008, 12:15 AM

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

Alex, how you ever found this today of all days is a mystery to me. Do you have a little psychic gift there, or was it all one of those great moments of synchronicity?

If I am honest I had such a strong feeling of needing to ask that question.

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

My husband and I, back in 2005, separated and nearly divorced. It made us both stronger, different... we grew up in a way I don't think we ever would have without that pain, the time apart. Losing "us" caused each of us to find ourselves.

That is freaking awesome, congratulations.... You've lived learned and through the experiences grown in many ways and one of those strength and another love? I am happy for you.

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

And then, after we each learned to lean on God by ourselves, we were given "us" back.

It has been the greatest miracle of my life, and about the hardest thing I have ever done- losing my marriage, and then falling back in love and climbing back into it. It required immense forgiveness on both of our parts and a lot of change. But, oh... it is a great joy. Somehow the people we became by full realizing ourselves, by becoming independent from each other, came to find that they loved each other all the more.

I envy you lol........

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

It has been the greatest miracle of my life, and about the hardest thing I have ever done

I had to see that again!

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

It has been the greatest miracle of my life

Just once more! lol..

You have made my day.

path_of_one · 02-23-2008, 01:01 AM

I'm glad to have made your day; you certainly made mine! Glad you thought to ask the question... I can count it as a wonderful synchronicity- a little anniversary gift from God and you.

I don't know that I'd envy what we went through. We're both emotional, passionate, really intense people. I can say for myself that I felt like I was dying and just totally breaking apart, then God gave me strength and forgiveness, but I was really cold for quite some time emotionally after the separation. It was like a switch was turned off and it was a long haul until God managed to turn it back on. I was, for a while, me but not me with him, if that makes sense. Now I'm me, but a better version of me, with him and in general. I daresay, from what I understand, my husband faced a similar trajectory, except that he hit the coldness phase before me and that is why he asked for a divorce, and then he fell back in love with me and had to wait while I caught up to him. I realize lots of people get divorces, and maybe everyone feels that way. But don't think I could have borne it without God.

Yet, despite how awful it was, I wouldn't do it differently. Somehow I needed it, I guess. I found that suffering can produce a lot of good things if I lean on God through it and am willing to be changed.

That's one of the real miracles of all life, I think-- that often, what is the most difficult, the most harrowing, the darkest night becomes what is most beautiful, the brightest sunrise. If we let it, everything leads to life and love no matter how distant we feel from it.

Marriage will never be quiet or exactly easy for me, LOL. Lots of people who know us always say how lucky we are, and I do feel blessed. But we're both artistic and kind of fiery personalities so any emotion runs really deep- happiness is very very happy, and grief or anger or hurt is very very worrisome. We learned, in part, to just know that the bad times don't last long if we don't hold on to them and as long as we are dedicated to actively loving each other- showing love. We used to think everything had to be perfect, and then exhaust ourselves with guilt and frustration trying to make it so. Now we honor that we love each other crazily and always will, that we understand some deep part of each other that no one else does, that's wrapped up with our spirits and the gorgeousness and pain of life... but we'll still sometimes get annoyed that we do, well, annoying things and we'll still sometimes lose our tempers, be rude or selfish. LOL

I think it's as good as it gets! It gets better over time, in part because we increasingly strive to hold on to the love, the beauty, the sense of unity in spirit... and to let go of the rest.

17th Angel · 02-23-2008, 01:10 AM

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

I'm glad to have made your day; you certainly made mine! Glad you thought to ask the question... I can count it as a wonderful synchronicity- a little anniversary gift from God and you.

*offers a party hat*

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

I don't know that I'd envy what we went through.

It was like a switch was turned off and it was a long haul until God managed to turn it back on. I was, for a while, me but not me with him, if that makes sense.

Yet, despite how awful it was, I wouldn't do it differently.

I didn't exactly mean envy, I mean like appreciate your experience it is quite a lesson.... But yes you admit it was hard and you also admit you'd do it again, for Love right? You've learnt you got a good bond! Seriously, and from this it has also beome stronger ten fold. I guess we all learn Love is an amazing thing, but there are times it is hard and there is sadness because we are aware of the lack of Love.... But the loss we can lose from not trying to love is a greater loss than loving and losing it.. So can see what I mean?

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

Now we honor that we love each other crazily and always will, that we understand some deep part of each other that no one else does, that's wrapped up with our spirits and the gorgeousness and pain of life... but we'll still sometimes get annoyed that we do, well, annoying things and we'll still sometimes lose our tempers, be rude or selfish. LOL .

Hey who told you the path would be straight, clear and easy....

We have our slips, loss of sense of direction, confusion, anger.. It is how we deal with them, that will determine if we make it all the way...

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Originally Posted by path_of_one

I think it's as good as it gets! It gets better over time, in part because we increasingly strive to hold on to the love, the beauty, the sense of unity in spirit... and to let go of the rest.

Ameen!