In the book The Art of Programming with Visual Basic, Mark Warhol says "...I myself used to write such drivel. I look at the first application I did and feel quite ashamed..." which is how I feel about some of the old posts I've made in the past. These were a learning experience, and I hope that my more recent posts are also learning experiences but at a more refined level.
yeah it's about your username. Interesting view on reality. The inside and outside? Actually recently I have wanted to disappear from the wider reality in which I found myself, create a new one and become a new and different person. It involved cutting myself off from people I had known for years. I didn't want to be found. I wanted to destroy my old life and create a new one. I wanted to adopt a new identity. Salt becoming pepper, Dream becoming reality, reality becoming dream, pepper becoming salt.
I had forgotten about posting that. Thanks for reminding me. It is post 174028
A note about it: Since posting it I have come to understand that Ezekiel is a very complex work that is meant to be studied for years as an exercise in communing with Torah. It isn't something understood through casual reading or by someone saying 'This is what it means.' Apparently you need a guide to pass on the spirit along with the reading and have to really burn some brain cells on it. I'm focused on other things right now and probably could not convince anybody to spend that kind of time on me, since it isn't a life focus for me. Still, the idea of the 500 is kind of cool