No you don't, because nothing can be a help. You are making the wall thicker through the acquisition of ego, you feel you understand because you have comprehended words but you have not known their depths. All that is necessary is to surrender to NOW. Keep watching mind, its conclusions and judgments and go on inquiring into where these arise from. Know that mind cannot assist in the journey, it cannot come along because the path is not for it. Your heart is all that can come, but how will you drop mind on the way? It is like a persistent stalker, it plays all types of tricks to come along. You simply give yourself utterly to NOW, if you can do that consciously you will arrive this moment. Then you will see how stupid you have been clinging to useless words.