At first it is - for instance: I understand much better than I did all those months ago when I was last active here, how my life situation fits in to the themes I incarnated to experience. A general feeling of understanding and expectation for possibilities has replaced my rampant desire to understand. I have a generalized outline of a series of incarnations (I have no idea if they were all me, or simply similarly vibrating entities) which to glean some sort of theme for my existence. Sounds a simple thing, but it has done wonders for me. The reason I can be so satisfied with the little bit of information I have, is because you can INDEED separate the layers of reality I see. It is not easy, and it has taken years of practice, but it IS possible to leave the body without being trapped in the miasma of the Astral. One can "step back" far enough from the physical to gain a clear perspective, for a moment or two. The effect of such an exposure is cumulative, and memories begin to stick with more tenacity. I have problems with the idea of a "mystical experience" that takes place under the guidance of the subconscious.