Here is where I think: just give it all to God, all the considerations. Try ťo let God take over completely. Not as a philosophical thing, but as a real thing, that gets a real response?
I don't think we have a choice in that either way, but being you're made in God's image, you might want to pay a little more attention to what god is telling you through yourself. But then, I need to take my own advice and believe me, after the life I lived it has proven to be quite difficult, but i'm learning and growing and developing still.