Why does this happen? What is the mechanism? Do you know?
Has this happened to you?
Yes. That was an example from personal experience
I'll try keep this as concise as possible (by request), but there is quite a bit to it. So perhaps I'll start another dedicated thread, if there are specifics you would like to know about any of this
It seems to be a mechanism of cyclical alignment and layered equilibrium
People, animals and plants. Basically anything living, can be hurt or even killed, in what appears to be an alignment to emotions. Or more specifically, emotional outbursts, or a lack of emotional control
I say "appears to be", because the nature of alignment to cycles of the greater (external) and lesser (internal) mysteries, is that every cause need also be considered effect, and every effect need also be considered cause
Meaning that although it appears rage, anger or violence triggers decay within aspects of the world that are intimately aligned to you, so that people, creatures and plants all die inexplicably ...
It needs also be considered that the pattern of decay within the cycle that brought about such death, also brought about the influences upon your emotions
An important part of initiation is training the conscious to view the world cyclically (Christ)
Using particular exercises and meditation, you can alter directional perception and teach yourself to think bi-directionally
Within the recognition of patterns within this manner of thinking, you progressively become more aware of cycles, and of your ability to influence, and be influenced by such cycles
Until eventually, you not only recognise the patterns, but the patterns begin to recognise you
It comes about most easily by training your mind in the use of symbols and patterns
Within my tradition, we use numbers, letters and words very specifically, because they represent the most intimately "programmed" pattern recognition
I can give you the very specific exercises to practice, but you should be warned that unlocking your directional perception can be quite painful mentally
Many people who begin to unlock their mind in such a way to recognise "patterns" within the numbers and language the surrounds us, can end to feeling as though they are losing their mind
The more you unlock the patterns, the worse it seems to get. To the point where it can feel as though you are being bombarded or "attacked" by these patterns wherever you go
It can even turn people to seek salvation within religion, where they see it as some type of demonic influence or evil
The reality is, that opening yourself to this type of pattern recognition, doesn't just alter your way of thinking and how you view the world, but actually physically rewires your brain. Opening up pathways that have not been used since you were a baby, born into this world Mastered
Before you were taught to view and interact with the world linearly, through numbers, letters and words
If you manage to do it correctly, it will be very painful, to the point of maddening, for up to 2-3 years
After which the recognition of patterns becomes instinctual, and far less painful
The Rosicrucians have a much milder method for unlocking your mind in a similar way, by Rudolph Steiner called "the backward review"
This, essentially, teaches you mind to think bi-directionally, and is far less painful
However, the trade off to it being far less painful, is it will take you many, many years longer to develop using this method
Using directional language exercises, is a far more potent and faster way. But you have little control once you open the floodgate
I can give you the detailed exercises if you are interested
All you will need to do is invest some time and effort into seriously doing them to begin with, until you unlock enough that your alignment to the patterns begins to take over
The best way I can describe it is ...
You begin to see patterns, that lead you to see more deeper patterns, that lead you to even deeper patterns
At first you will be amazed by what you recognise .... Then you will be overwhelmed ....
Then you will be aligned to them in such a way that it is like the world itself becomes aware that you can hear it
... And once it realises you can hear it, it will not shut up!
But eventually (after a few years) your mind adjusts to being rewired and it is no longer painful
2. Jesus said, "Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. [And after they have reigned they will rest.]"
I will walk into a shop past a sign, and read part of it, that applies to exactly what I am thinking, as if it is trying to answer and give me a message. I'll look away and see more writing, that continues perfectly to what I just read on the other sign ...
I'll look away, where there are no signs, to try quite the message being given to me by the world around me (as it gets very tiring when this happens constantly, everywhere you go). As I do, a person walks past speaking to their friend, and I overhear part of a sentence that finishes the exact message I made an effort to ignore and not hear
The alignment is that precise. To the point where trying to make decisions or actions to allow me to ignore the message, is already precisely measured and accounted for, to the point where someone would be walking past in that exact moment I chose not to look at any more written words around me, speaking the exact words I needed to hear to finish the message ...
All aligned perfectly, before I could ever even know there was a message to be seen, that I could choose to try to cut off and ignore. Let alone make conscious choices towards ...
Choices that would lead me to the alignment of someone walking past that competed the message anyway
I laugh at how perfectly aligned it all is. And I immediately hear lyrics in the music playing in the supermarket, talking about how funny and amazing life is
I go to leave the supermarket, thinking I have everything I need. But I hear a woman in the isle I'm passing say "We need to get cereal for Sam". My name. And I realise I have forgotten my cereal
The exact same cereal she is getting for her Sam
This is just an example of what you go through constantly, relentlessly, day and night. From the second you wake up, till the time you go to sleep
Which should give you an understanding of why some people fall apart when they get even a taste of alignment within pattern recognition
These patterns and the "messages" you see, reflect the emanation of your own conscious mind
So if you have a mind full of pain, and a heart full of fear. The messages and alignment will be much the same
If you see it as being some type of demonic attack, it will quickly become so
Ironically, those that seek salvation from such things, are really seeking to be saved from themselves
The patterns can only colour that which is offered to them
The mind can only see, what it has eyes to look for
If you see it as a curse, it will quickly become such
But literally everything it offers you, will be targeted at you dealing with pain, fear and other blockages
Many will think they are being tortured, because it keeps picking at childhood trauma, or reminding them of the most painful things to ever happen to them
But it is part of how the alignment systematically removes anything within your mind or heart, that could act as blockage to the alignment of your physical body to the world around you
Once you deal with your pains and fears, it has nothing to hurt you with. And all it will ever offer you, is ways for you to lessen pain and fear in the world around you for all forms of life
It becomes, essentially, like be a set of eyes within the external body (world) around you, towards things that you likely would not have otherwise seen
And the more you become aware of it, and see these things, the more you begin to feel them
The more you begin to feel them, the more you become influential to them, within needing to try
This comes with a cyclical type of return, where you become intimately connected with the pain, fears, joy and love of the world around you
You feel it in a way that is hard to describe
In the Gnostic traditions these were described within the works on:
Sabaoth = Sympathy
Yaldabaoth = Empathy
So within the ability to heal things that you become intimately aware of within the world, that others may be mostly blind to, you also open yourself to being intimately hurt by these things
I become physically sick, or feel physical pain, based on sickness or decay that I recognise and try to help with
In aligning to the external body (world around you) you need take on all its alignments, including decay and sickness. Not just the healing and creation
Within going through the Aquarian process referred to as Ascension (Annunaki), I have been sick for many years now. To the point where I have spent a good percentage of the last 10 years in bed. With doctors unable to find any cause for what is physically wrong with me
The best way to describe it, is it feels like I have an emptiness, or hollowed pain in the right side of my chest, exactly opposite to my heart
One that is debilitating at times, so that I can barely get out of bed, let alone leave the house
In my tradition I am told that this is referred to in mystery school traditions as "affliction", and I'm told that although the physical manifestation of this "anti-heart" is very real, it is not something that doctors will ever be able to find the source of
Within this, it seems to be that the more I care for and heal the world around, the less I feel the pain within my chest. As if I am lessening my own pain
Likewise, if I ignore things I can do for the world around me, I find myself feeling worse
It becomes a delicate balance of sorts. I struggle to get out of bed, to take care of animals, gardens and others around me, or I find myself feeling unwell, and unable to do the things that make me feel better
This extends to the emotional mechanism of what you asked about in my earlier post
I get angry, or rage, and the beautiful people, animals and gardens around me, that I am intimately connected to, suffer from some sort of decay. To the point of death, many times
However, I should probably say, that the gifts I get to receive and experience counter to this are well worth the curse of the negative side of such an alignment
An alignment similar to what you will read many religious people describe as moments when they felt "God was upon them"
But the experience is far more intimate than one being subject to the experience of something "outside" themselves
I get to see and experience alignments of beauty and love, that most don't even know exist
Moments, similar to the lady in the supermarket reminding me that I need cereal. But within the context of a sense of purpose and worth, within how the world sees me
I can be worried about the fact that I have no money, and may run out of fuel, and have a full 20ltr can of fuel literally fall off the back of a mining vehicle as it passes me
Then find another full 20ltr can on the side of the road that same day
I stop to pick up a bird that has been run over on the road outside my friends house, so I can take it to bury it, but I realise I have nothing in my car to put it in
Less than a second later, an empty ice bag flutters up to me, from the construction site down the road
It is in essence, the same type of alignment as those in religion call "God", but we do not seek to name it, possess it, of make it something other than what it is
We align with it, in the source of who we are, from within. As we are one within the same source, or we would not be here
But unlike religion, we understand we need take the depth of pain, to understand the relative depth of love
To be one with creation, you need also be one with the decay
