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Look, you feel something in your heart and you call it faith.
Where from you got it? Have you earned it?
No! It isn’t my achievement. I just contemplated, thought about and it was there in my heart.
Is your heart a special one?
No! It is just the same like every other human has.
Why you then sometimes feel elevated over it?
Yes, sometime it happens or may happen but I must not feel so. When ever I felt such, I felt restlessness; and my contentment which my faith gives me is loosened to some extent.
Why do you want people to know about your faith? Can’t you keep silent?
I want to tell everybody. I am forced to keep silent otherwise I want to tell every human. I want to tell them, it is such, it is faith, and it is in their heart. I want to ask them whether they have. If they answer, “yes”, I shall ask them to match with each other. Yes, it must be and it must be same as we have same hearts. I see all livings do want to live with their own species and also search for.
Why are you afraid and you claiming that you have, “faith”?
I think if I expose it to violent storms it may extinguish before being shown to those who may like to see. There may be a time that some would say, “Yes, it is like ours’ and ours’ like it.” If a time comes that I found no other way, I shall assert it vehemently in face of storms and accept the God’s will much willingly.
Like most humans you are also entangled in affairs of the life and you may seek favors for yourself in response to your faith. Will you if time favor you?
I seek the God’s protection for it. I must not ever claim perfection. My faith is humble and I may err. I know that I may not impart it to any one if he/she is not inclined to, so I may not pass it on. It will be the God’s blessing and not my endowment so I must not seek any reward. May the God save me from any such wish.
Why don’t you accept any religion or be an atheist?
I much strongly believe that the God is and is one and I cannot be an atheist. Religions attach compulsory additions, ceremonies and, manners which my faith does not include. My belief is very simple. It may be every body’s with out involving me or any body else living or dead. I believe that the God is God of humans, God of all equally, not more of some, not less of some. Religious conditions fall heavily upon my heart. I will not surrender my freedom to these conditions. The God I believe is God of free humans and not of condition bounds.
Why don’t you ask your God to help you? You and your faith seem much weak as compared to religions and believers.
I do seek the God’s benevolence and help all time. It is upon the God to decide. I must be content by His will, He is almighty, all knowing. I do not know what is good or not, should be or not be. The God is surely just and my wishes may not be.
Why don’t you then wait for the God’s will, or continue your life like most of humans with out bothering about God, religions or faith?
Haven’t you seen chirping birds at dawn or evening? They do tell and announce, “There is the light, there is the light”, or “beware the dark comes, the dark comes.”
They might be silenced for some time because of fear but resume as soon as it is over. It is very natural with them. The light or dark do not come for them only but for all and all may see. The God I believe is not only mine but of all and all may feel; but just like birds, let me say, “The God is, the God is one, the God of universe, the God of all, feel the God.”



Is it the soul?


Why feels lonely among many people?

Why lost in the wilderness of universe?

It looks through shut or open eyes,

In bustling day light or in starry nights,

In nights much darkened by thick clouds,

Thundering, whistling or without sounds,

Rain or sun also many times takes it far,

As a journey person of far, and beyond far,

Oceans, woods, valleys and in mountains,

In far of lands and places beyond lands,

It wanders freely beyond boundaries false,

Why absorbed as it feels some unheard calls,

Why searches every where, what has it lost?

Is it the soul and seeks some thing of past?
 
Very poetic, and heartfelt, too.

Here's what my heart says to me. I give it voice here because I want it to be informed by what you say.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Long ago and far away (with apologies to George Lucas) a young boy opened his eyes for the first time.

Mother, warm.

Father, strong.

Swaddled, cradled, the boy was, in loving arms.

Dedicated to God, the boy was, by sincere hearts.

The boy prayed; and God replied: "You are my child, little one. I will care for you, lead you, guide you throughout your life."

Storms came, the boy was buffeted, but his faith held him firmly to the ground.

Then a new day dawned; a different day, like no other the boy had seen.

"The Bible is a document created by humans."

"Don't take it literally."

"Perhaps examine it rationally; dispassionately."

These things and more the Professors said.

And the boy's heart was troubled.

Ripples across his soul.

But his faith held firm, even still.

This boy grew, became a man, lived strong, lived abundantly.

He learned to question God.

God answered.

But his voice had changed.

"Because I said so."

"You don't need to know that."

"Just trust me."

And finally, God said:

"Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain."

The boy within the man spoke.

"Why can it not be as it was?"

The man grieved. For a long time he was silent.

And then he rose from his sackcloth and ashes.

"I must get on with my life."

Today he walks with wonder in his heart. Wonder at the world, the universe; beauty, truth, kindness and goodness; and - yes - the cruelty of humankind.

Today he says, "My heart is not empty." Yet he knows it is.

He longs for faith.

Where is it? Why has it departed? Will it ever return?

He moves through the remainder of his life, traveling, doing the bit of good he can in the world he lives in.

At night, he looks to the stars.

"Come back to me, God. I miss you."

He waits still for an answer.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~

Forgive my angst.

I was inspired by your post - really I was. This response is sincere and heartfelt. It summarizes why I'm here at C-R. I search, but cannot blindly believe anymore.

I look forward to your comments on this, my post, and to the other things you have to share from your own heart.

peace,

press
 
Very nice too Press :)

Maybe the man no longer hears Gods voice as separate because he has truly become one ? Maybe God too is striving for perfection and understanding and that they now walk together?

Regards

TE
 
"I was inspired by your post - really I was. This response is sincere and heartfelt. It summarizes why I'm here at C-R. I search, but cannot blindly believe anymore.

I look forward to your comments on this, my post, and to the other things you have to share from your own heart."

Friends,

I do need motivation but please feel free to criticize my view or demand explanations. Take me to task if you feel that I have diverted from my aclaimed faith or path. I am an ordinory human and may err. Please be natural as you know I do not like artificiality of any sort and I claim that my faith is natural. I believe that every human heart is the God's abode if the concerned human looks into it with a naked, natural eye without wearing spectacles of individualism, racism, nationalism, regionalism, religiousism etc. Such spectacle harm the ability of concerned humans to see clearly and thus their vision is damaged and blured.

Friend,
If you have some time to spare please read all my posts and let me know if you find any incoherenc, inconformity; as every body knows truth must not have any contradictions. Your post is also very impressive and I smell a true seeking for truth in you.

Blessings,
akbar, an ordinory farmer from Punjab, Pakistan.
 
Friend, Tao Equus,

Thanks for you motivation again and again. I believe that the God does not need perfection. We are lead astray by our selfishness.
 
Once upon a time a learned philosopher was passing by a farmer who was praising the God for his good harvest. The learned philosopher was a non believer and did not believe in the God or in existance of any such thing so he said to the farmer, "Oh. you simple man there is'nt any such thing. You cultivated the land, did much efforts so your harvest is good." The farmer tried a lot to convince him that the God exists but in vain. The philosopher denied all his arguments and said that the faith of farmer was nothing but whim or superstition. The farmer was much fed up by his, "no, no, I am not convinced, I do not believe." He picked a piece of solid mud and hit the philosopher at his back. The philosopher was much angry on his misbehavior and rebuked him a lot. The farmer denied the action altogether and asked him to prove as there was'nt any mark where the piece of mud hit. The philosopher said to him that he could'nt deny because he was feeling pain though he coul'nt show his pain or did'nt saw the farmer hitting. The farmer apologized and offered himself to be hit twice or more. He also said to the philosopher that just as he was feeling pain and could'nt show or prove so he felt the God though he could not prove. The philosopher said, " I understand your argument now and not only forgive you but also agree with you."

 
akbar said:
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I do need motivation but please feel free to criticize my view or demand explanations. Take me to task if you feel that I have diverted from my aclaimed faith or path. I am an ordinory human and may err.
Friend,
If you have some time to spare please read all my posts and let me know if you find any incoherenc, inconformity; as every body knows truth must not have any contradictions.
Blessings,
akbar, an ordinory farmer from Punjab, Pakistan.
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Dear akbar .... long ago when we gave up our power to others we began to walk a crooked path and also began to look outside of ourselves for the answers to who we are .... some even began to look at God as an entity outside that could give us answers or things when we pray .... as ordinary human begins we do err, but that is part of the beauty of life .... all that you write that comes from the soul shows and reflects motivation, truth, and is very coherent ....as much as we all want to have others comment on what we share from within (that is part of our human ego asking for feedback), we must trust our souls and say our truth as we see it .... what I love about your words is that they don't come from quoted texts and any specific religion, they are words of an ordinary farmer from Punjab, Pakistan .... he hawai'i au, pohaikawahine
 
"Dear akbar .... long ago when we gave up our power to others we began to walk a crooked path and also began to look outside of ourselves for the answers to who we are .... some even began to look at God as an entity outside that could give us answers or things when we pray .... as ordinary human begins we do err, but that is part of the beauty of life .... all that you write that comes from the soul shows and reflects motivation, truth, and is very coherent ....as much as we all want to have others comment on what we share from within (that is part of our human ego asking for feedback), we must trust our souls and say our truth as we see it .... what I love about your words is that they don't come from quoted texts and any specific religion, they are words of an ordinary farmer from Punjab, Pakistan .... he hawai'i au, pohaikawahin."

Agreed, and have notning else to say but only, "thanks".
You know after all I am a human, have human felings and also human weaknesses. All humans want to share their experiences and also their feelings with others. I think you may imagine my situation being an out law, a lonely and I am an ordinory human with no other out let for my feelings but on net. Just imagine about an ordinory farmer from a third world country.
 
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