Who can help me with me meditation experience?

[Nice_guy]

Today I was at a Buddhist center (my first time in such a place).I decided to do some Buddhist meditation.But I ended up just immersing myself in myself.
A huge smile involuntarily spread across my face—so big that I probably looked like the Joker from the Batman movies.
My arms crossed over my chest, clasping my shoulders.
And then my right hand grabbed me by the throat.
But it didn't choke me, it just grabbed me by the throat.
My eyes rolled back in my head, my jaw clenched, my whole face wrinkled.But most of all, the VERY tight smile was disconcerting, stretching from ear to ear.
It was unusual; I scared everyone there. What could that be?
The devil?

I had visions of all this before, but I never let them happen because of the fear of the unknown.

 

[iBrian]

Are you saying that you're a Satanist who was using the experience to explore their identity? Or saying that that you're a devout Christian who felt such strong guilt at being in a different faith center that you subconsciously tried to disrupt the experience? Or that you are a non-faith person with quite severe mental health issues in the first place? Or are you just imagining such an experience for us, because you've mainly described how you might have physically looked to another person or a TV/movie camera rather than the internal feelings a person in that situation would actually have felt?

 

[Nice_guy]

Are you saying that you're a Satanist who was using the experience to explore their identity? Or saying that that you're a devout Christian who felt such strong guilt at being in a different faith center that you subconsciously tried to disrupt the experience? Or that you are a non-faith person with quite severe mental health issues in the first place? Or are you just imagining such an experience for us, because you've mainly described how you might have physically looked to another person or a TV/movie camera rather than the internal feelings a person in that situation would actually have felt?

Im not a satanist: im just a christian, who is interested in meditations - asian practices

 

[TheLightWithin]

Today I was at a Buddhist center (my first time in such a place).I decided to do some Buddhist meditation.But I ended up just immersing myself in myself.
A huge smile involuntarily spread across my face—so big that I probably looked like the Joker from the Batman movies.
My arms crossed over my chest, clasping my shoulders.
And then my right hand grabbed me by the throat.
But it didn't choke me, it just grabbed me by the throat.
My eyes rolled back in my head, my jaw clenched, my whole face wrinkled.But most of all, the VERY tight smile was disconcerting, stretching from ear to ear.
It was unusual; I scared everyone there. What could that be?
The devil?

I had visions of all this before, but I never let them happen because of the fear of the unknown.

What kind of discussion are you looking for around this?

Just a thought: A neurologist can diagnose or rule out whether any of this is seizure activity.