So "miracle" to you is the standard example the bible gives? You believe in all that nice..... Ever seen it happen?
Yes, I've had a miracle happen in my life, Alex. And I don't mean it in the huggy-feely sense of "each day is a miracle," or "a warm summer breeze is a miracle." I mean it in the sense that something that should never have happened did happen at exactly the point that my soul was crying out for it to happen. It wasn't the raising of the dead, or the healing of someone with terminal cancer; it also wasn't getting a seat on a crowded bus, or getting the last slice of pie at the cafeteria. But it was significant for me in terms of what was happening in my life, and six years later there is no doubt in my mind that it was a miracle.
I haven't said what the miracle is because for all you know I may be making it up, just like all the other shysters and false-prophets. I am telling you the truth, but even if I wasn't I would say that I am.
Dream, I honestly feel for you because I believe what you wrote a hundred percent. I'm not sure why that particular miracle happened to me when I only hoped and didn't ask, while other people ask and do not receive, even though Jesus says that we will receive. I'm not sure why I've been able to walk ass-backwards through life so far, encountering opportunity after opportunity like I'm somehow invincible to all of the hardships that I hear others talking about, but it's happened somehow. Maybe my hardships are coming later. Maybe your miracles are coming later. I will say this, though: having gone through a tough life, I bet you've developed a whole lot more character than I have. That's not much of a consolation, though.
I know that miracles happen sometimes. I know that they don't happen sometimes. I'm not sure why that is; God is hard to understand. I also know that sometimes we don't know what's best for us, or that the things we want require a different path than we think they do.
Dream, perhaps God needs you for something very, very big, and needs you to develop character that most people don't have.