I understand now, I think?
I appologize for posting one after another, haha! I'm just excited and wanted your thoughts. I think I understand the concept of Salvation now, and that it is NOT wrong to embrace it.
It's funny, I was laying in bed thinking about this discussion, and picking through my Bible looking, and hoping to find something that would make things 'click', but I found nothing. I lay my Bible down beside me, then closed my eyes, and simply contemplated on what has already been said in this discussion.
Then, something came over me, a deeper understanding, and a deeper Love, and a deeper peace then what I'm accustomed to. I can't explain it, but it was an amazing experience, and I was fully touched by it...
I think what made it click, and resonate within was this part of scripture:
Matthew 18:3-4
3. And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.
4. Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
I thought to myself: "Is this what I'm missing?" that I need to humble myself like a little child, and accept that there are some things, I simply cannot do on my own. I need to silence my pride, embrace my Fathers will, and maintain this humble Spirit. Because, all children need a provider, why would I be any different, if I am indeed a child of God? I think we are all God's children, and perhaps it's time I let him (God) be a father to me?
I hope that I'm making sense, because I am extremely tired, and in a bit of a daze, lol!
I think what I'm trying to say is I need my Father to protect me, and provide for me, that which I cannot provide for myself. My mother said I have been fighting with God, and I think I see her point now. Children often rebel against their parents, and hold the view that they 'know' what's best for them. I can't help, but laugh at this, because this is exactly what I have been doing with God.
All God is trying to do is give me something I can't obtain through my own actions, and Love me. He gave me his Son to be my Shepherd; he gave me a chance to accept what my Shepherd did for me, so that I might be saved through 'his' efforts.
John 10:7-11
7. Then said Jesus unto them again, Verily, verily, I say unto you, I am the door of the sheep.
8. All that ever came before me are thieves and robbers: but the sheep did not hear them.
9. I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.
10. The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
11. I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep
You may disagree, but if Jesus is God in the Flesh, then wouldn't that make him my father, as God is my 'Heavenly' father? What good father/shepherd wouldn't die to protect their children, and what good father/shepherd wouldn't suffer great pains to keep their children safe?
I think I realize now, that it's not my choice to make, but rather my 'duty' as a child, to be grateful, and honor what he (Jesus) did on the cross for me. He was merely being my provider, and protecter; and isn't THAT what a father is in the end? You know, he suffered many things Loving me, and I think if I didn't emrace what he did, I would be doing him a great injustice.
Forget principal, CR!
I was was wrong to deny that kind of Love!
Even so, a father is also a childs example, as well as teacher. Throughout Jesus' life on this earth, he displayed a Love like no other, and I think this is his 'true' cause. That we (Mankind) might follow his example, and become good shepherds/stewards/servants to others, and to this earth ourselves...
~Cage~