Hi everyone, I'm new here. For a couple weeks now I have been thinking about what happens after we die. I can't help but try to find answers. I was raised Catholic and then about 5 years ago I became agnostic. I don't know why but I started randomly reading about religions and people's faith. I came across the belief of reincarnation and I always knew about it since my dad is Buddhist but I never believed in it. For some reason reading a lot of people's view on this scares the crap out of me that it could be real. I don't want to forget who I am, I don't want to forget loved ones, I don't want them to forget me. I don't want to have to live life over and over again and then cease to exist. I don't want to have 100 different spouses in past lives, or children, or families, it doesn't sound special to me at all. Some reincarnation believers think that your husband can be your sister in a next life and it makes me depressed and want to throw up lol. I'm not saying I really believe in it but I'm not ruling it out as a possibility. I think it is hell. I wouldn't even mind reincarnating if we all just remember who we were but get to experience life as an Avatar, martian, or bird for a short while if we wish. My idea of heaven is eternal of never getting bored, doing whatever you want, exploring universe, be unconscious if I wish, experience life through others, visit loved ones. I don't know how to stop worrying about it. People say you won't remember anyways but that is what scares me and depresses me.