Possibilities... I feel for ya, (reading the back and forth between Thomas and I), one can sit in the comfort of a church that provides the lines...it benefits many. You may or may not have read that Thomas strayed for a while,.was a searcher and over time found his way home to Catholicism. Or our discussions of two theologians Bart Erhman and Jack Spong. Both devouts, both discovered what they deemed troubling info in their studies. One lost his faith and became atheist, the other more devout in his discovery biblical issues. I believe without Thomas's time away he would not have the same desire to learn and embrace the Church as he is today... Idk what he would say, but I say, search, explore, and don't be surprised if it leads you home.