I used to stick to the widely accepted "dont know, dont care about god" camp. At least, until I heard a voice in my head speak the words of the Tao Te Ching in my head almost verbatim. I didnt know it was the Tao cos I had never heard or seen anything about it then. It got me interested enough in religion to search online about many religions and then my mind was blown when i read the words(was one, became 2, became 3, became 10K) first in Lao Tse's book. I still cant explain it but it made me believe that an intelligent entity exists and can communicate with Man. Maybe the subconscious is our link to God.
A second time the words "The future is uncertain. Just Be." were injected into my mind.
And finally while tying my shoes once, I had an experience of nonduality but was told by my doc that it was a 'delusion'. Almost agreed, until I realized it was foolish to believe another person's opinion of veracity about a reality they had never experienced. Not blaming him but realize that he only has his psych textbook as source of truth.
Now I believe, if a god exists, it would be a being of unconditional love. Not punishing based on judgements. If we go back to the infinite state of god when we die, all would be welcome. Including murderers, rapists and pedophiles. It is in this finite, earthly life that we know we suffer. But suffering while linked to emotion is the result of perceptions by our conditioned brains. Negative reactions to mental goodness or badness, for me at least, also exist mostly in the mind. We may not always be able to accept negative states of mind, but they are a part of human life in this uncertain reality we all share. I respect the power of religion to bring peace of heart to those in suffering. Add in the unexplained magic of placebos and we got spiritual healing! So believing in a loving God CAN cure your illnesses and provide relief during troubled times! Not always powerful but happens frequently enough...
I feel that I got lucky in life despite having Multiple Personality Disorder. I will never be a father or husband(again) but I don't need to. I've never had to make an income and i have stable access to good food, sanitation, shelter, internet, desktop and the meds I need to stay alive. Those are the physical 'goods' i got in life and don't have to worry about now. If I dont expect anything when I wake up, I find the universe does gift me with both mentally and physically rewarding experiences every now and then. The little things add up over time especially if I practice gratitude. I realize not everyone in this world has them and i dont think we will ever have a world where everyone does. The ego is a brain system that would require radical evolving for that to change to purely positive and even if it did, we would seek the negative because an a-ok life for everyone would be meaningless and quickly lead to bore. We need to lose and fail in life to learn to appreciate what we have....