You are saying that Jesus told his disciples and the people to 'pick up the cross and follow me' What did that mean to them...all of them as common language for the masses before he was crucified?? This has got to be a mistranslation.[/]
Has it? Or maybe you're reading the verse in isolation?
Try reading it in context:
"And he saith unto them, (the 12) But whom say ye that I am? And Peter answereth and saith unto him, Thou art the Christ." And he charged them that they should tell no man of him. And he began to teach them, that the Son of man must suffer many things, and be rejected of the elders, and [of] the chief priests, and scribes, and be killed, and after three days rise again."
Mark 8:29-31
So 'pick up thy cross' follows from this dialogue. Not that they understood it, or believed it, as John states later, not until they saw the empty tomb did they begin to believe ... and not until they began to believe could they begin to understand ... and not until they began to understand did they begin to see...
It's the same with faith - it sounds like a Catch 22, but it's a fact - if you don't believe, you won't understand, because when you don't believe you've already said 'no'.
The trouble with us humans is we want to be convinced first, then we'll commit. But life isn't like that. If God wanted to prove Himself beyond a shadow of a doubt He could do it, but then what?
What would it mean to be human? Nothing. If there was a proof of God, you'd have to be mad to deny it, and if it is undeniable, then where is freedom?
Where there is no freedom, there is no love, only obligation.
I love the Celtic notion of Christianity - It's one huge adventure, it's a risk, let's go for it!
The Trinity is a Mystery, and it is central to the Catholic and Orthodox Faiths. It remains a Mystery because it is Limitless, Infinite, it is a disclosure of the Interiority of God, and God is limitless, infinite ... it opens into Infinite depths ... read Eckhart, who tried to give it a definition, and got into deep water because of it.
Do I understand it? Yes, and No. Like Augustine said, when no-one asks me what time is, I know what it is, but when someone asks, I can't explain it.
Do I have a sense of it? Absolutely.
Do I believe in it? Yes.
A Zen master once said "No more questions. Just sit." The point is, not until you 'do' it will you really understand it.
Thomas