yes, tis is what makes sense to me. that man manifests reality and looks at life in temrs of the associations he has been taught/picked up wit certain myths, avatar figures, archetypes ad oter ideas.
but im dealing with intangible mmbo jumbo now
i wonder if christianity is really right.
i go on sites like "christiananswers.net and am perplexed, it seems so silly and so obviously psychological
but then again
i did blsheme
i did "have a feeling" precvious to this, and on several times, that jesus was real. i just attributed it to brainwahsing, ad to feelng good becuase i "knew" that jesus was associated wit savig someone from ell and sending to heaven.
christians and the bible ad sites dont stand up to intense scientidfic questioning i thoght. i still think
bt now im like, well jesus, it doesnt make any sense to me but ibeleive
and i hear a voice saying, sorry ,it is too late. i hear you calling but it is too late
i didc all on satan after all. that means i called on what was evil
maybe i tohught evil was good, thereby thinkig that jesus was bad, which is blasphemig the holy spirit.
this is maybe what i did.
even now
'
if i convert, i dont nkow how will save other souls.
college kids will come at me with their dumb questions, i could convert most people to christianity you realize. most anti christians dont know how to argue against christianity. i can do it, but if i was a chrisitan i wouldnt know what to tell them
i would say. i know. its crazy. just hope that heaven is gonna kick ass, becuase its completely funking crazy!
of course i am in love wit the world, i like indians and i like vodou "cults"
if i wnet to a missionary there, would i feel like i was in the unclean presence of evil. n i woud not. i dont understand. why can i understand christian arguments, but they cant understand my arguments.
i can see how everything is psychological and made up of complexes and associations in the mind..
god seems revealed through humans reaching beautiful potential and beauty
i see this in all faiths and walks of faith
or maybe i dont
maybe im deluded into loving the world
im too scared of ell
i know that christians sometimes say this isnt a reason to ecome christian
i dont nkow how to get my mind around hell
i dont care
teir arguments are absurd
its basically like this
"god is completely waco but he can be wacko, we beleive he is god and can do what he wants, we somehow define this whole thing as love and we use reason sometimes but when confronted with reason wego th parts of the bible that dsecry reason, also, it doesnt seem wacko to us becuase its god. and if you think its wacko, too bad, it is still god."
when christians use "logic" or try to "reason"
it makes me wNT TO PULL MY EYES OUT.
but ineed to surrender and be saved. im going to a church thi sunday. a girl i like goes there, if ibecome christian then she might like me, as it stands she will only marry a christian. i just want to be right with god nd with ahave a girl that loves me, and then i will devote my life to feeding children and spreading the gospel
hopefully the part of me that loves worl culture will be burned out by gods love. i will make christian music, everyrhing wil lbe ok, i can still follow my passions and be a christan. well i can be a christian in accordance with my talents i suppose, i see what i can contribute to the christian movement. great food from heathen cultures, and christian music with most of its musical influence from heathen music. i will finally go tohaiti and finally learn creole and ten i wil lstart converting yorubans from their evil cult. i will go to india too and convert all of them as well. the whole world will be converted. maybe the reason i had a love of all these other cultures was so it would be easier for me to convert them
but i peoabably wont convert.
there is a voice inside me telling me its too late.
i think i blasphemed against the holy spirit.
the feeling that makes me think jesus is real. i had it before all this started.
i still get it sometimes, but i feel that it too late anyway
there is a voice saying "no" "no im sorry" its too late. sometimes the voice says "all you can do i spread te message"
i must have really contacted satan
and blasphemed.
before my voices got this bad i heard a voice saying "if you follow this path, you are gonna burn in hell forever" now its too late. the voic tells me its too late. i didnt heed the warning and it is really too late i fear.
but im dealing with intangible mmbo jumbo now
i wonder if christianity is really right.
i go on sites like "christiananswers.net and am perplexed, it seems so silly and so obviously psychological
but then again
i did blsheme
i did "have a feeling" precvious to this, and on several times, that jesus was real. i just attributed it to brainwahsing, ad to feelng good becuase i "knew" that jesus was associated wit savig someone from ell and sending to heaven.
christians and the bible ad sites dont stand up to intense scientidfic questioning i thoght. i still think
bt now im like, well jesus, it doesnt make any sense to me but ibeleive
and i hear a voice saying, sorry ,it is too late. i hear you calling but it is too late
i didc all on satan after all. that means i called on what was evil
maybe i tohught evil was good, thereby thinkig that jesus was bad, which is blasphemig the holy spirit.
this is maybe what i did.
even now
'
if i convert, i dont nkow how will save other souls.
college kids will come at me with their dumb questions, i could convert most people to christianity you realize. most anti christians dont know how to argue against christianity. i can do it, but if i was a chrisitan i wouldnt know what to tell them
i would say. i know. its crazy. just hope that heaven is gonna kick ass, becuase its completely funking crazy!
of course i am in love wit the world, i like indians and i like vodou "cults"
if i wnet to a missionary there, would i feel like i was in the unclean presence of evil. n i woud not. i dont understand. why can i understand christian arguments, but they cant understand my arguments.
i can see how everything is psychological and made up of complexes and associations in the mind..
god seems revealed through humans reaching beautiful potential and beauty
i see this in all faiths and walks of faith
or maybe i dont
maybe im deluded into loving the world
im too scared of ell
i know that christians sometimes say this isnt a reason to ecome christian
i dont nkow how to get my mind around hell
i dont care
teir arguments are absurd
its basically like this
"god is completely waco but he can be wacko, we beleive he is god and can do what he wants, we somehow define this whole thing as love and we use reason sometimes but when confronted with reason wego th parts of the bible that dsecry reason, also, it doesnt seem wacko to us becuase its god. and if you think its wacko, too bad, it is still god."
when christians use "logic" or try to "reason"
it makes me wNT TO PULL MY EYES OUT.
but ineed to surrender and be saved. im going to a church thi sunday. a girl i like goes there, if ibecome christian then she might like me, as it stands she will only marry a christian. i just want to be right with god nd with ahave a girl that loves me, and then i will devote my life to feeding children and spreading the gospel
hopefully the part of me that loves worl culture will be burned out by gods love. i will make christian music, everyrhing wil lbe ok, i can still follow my passions and be a christan. well i can be a christian in accordance with my talents i suppose, i see what i can contribute to the christian movement. great food from heathen cultures, and christian music with most of its musical influence from heathen music. i will finally go tohaiti and finally learn creole and ten i wil lstart converting yorubans from their evil cult. i will go to india too and convert all of them as well. the whole world will be converted. maybe the reason i had a love of all these other cultures was so it would be easier for me to convert them
but i peoabably wont convert.
there is a voice inside me telling me its too late.
i think i blasphemed against the holy spirit.
the feeling that makes me think jesus is real. i had it before all this started.
i still get it sometimes, but i feel that it too late anyway
there is a voice saying "no" "no im sorry" its too late. sometimes the voice says "all you can do i spread te message"
i must have really contacted satan
and blasphemed.
before my voices got this bad i heard a voice saying "if you follow this path, you are gonna burn in hell forever" now its too late. the voic tells me its too late. i didnt heed the warning and it is really too late i fear.