To each his own I've always said. I would be interested in hearing how you perceive my version of God to be however that does not fit into your perceived truth. I know that is a difficult thing for people. The story of how you spent time in Saudi is like many I have heard. I've heard multiple accounts of people who have been to Muslim dominant countries and heard the calls, and not given a second thought to it, until they felt compelled one day to read, and later convert/revert. On another front I find it fascinating that you refer to angels/demons/gods/Son of God/etc. and yet still refer to yourself as atheist. There seems to be much confusion in you, and I'm wondering if this confusion may be leading to the voices. Your brain is trying to understand all these views and creates a being for each of those views.