Sigh.... Getting back on topic. (Just to be different) I'm kind of the same way. Our next door neighbor passed about 3 months ago from complications related to pneumonia. Great guy. Easily the best neighbor we've ever had. He had just turned 80. I felt bad about his passing, but not as bad as I did when a good friend of my wife passed about a week ago at the age of 56. I didn't know her all that well, but she was overweight and I gather smoked and drank most of her life. After suffering a heart attack, it was discovered that most of her arteries had 90% blockage, so they scheduled her for by-pass surgery. It was supposed to be a relatively routine procedure, but she ended up suffering multiple heart attacks and at least one stroke on the table and never fully regained consciousness. They kept her on life-support for almost two weeks, but eventually had to pull the plug. Somehow, it does seem worse when someone with a lot more life ahead of them passes.