This is kind of weird everyone talking about houses.. Ive had this dream about this house for as long as I can remember.. Its kind of an old big house and Im just walking around it looking in the rooms and snooping through drawers.. sometimes theres people there and sometimes im walking around it expecting someone to arrive soon. The stuff in the drawers are old.. victorian like furniture. It does give me that spooky feeling like luna describes.
Yes Dondi it gets tiring
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I dont like to be around people that create alot of drama.. you know like the "drama queen" types? It stresses me out. It almost feels like i cant breathe at times or anxious. Crowded places do it too.. I can look at people and just from there postures and facial expressions I can guage what mood they are in.. I think anyone can do this.. but Im more apt to feel it.. if that makes sense.. I was a wreck after 9/11 I kept invisioning how people were feeling almost like torturing myself and I would grieve in a big way.. hearing about accidents or people dying especially children.. I cant help imagining what the families are going through and I cry and pray..
sometimes when I get an emotional overload I vegetate.. Usually play games or read or watch mindless television.. or post on CR
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this actually happens a lot. lol
I keep editing to add stuff.. You've heard of mothers intuition.. well I get a healthy dose of that when it comes to my kids.. too many times in my 3 yo sons life Ive turned around just as he's about to do something dangerous.. Or I get this feeling to go check on him and hes about to do some damage to himself.. I think its his guardian angel giving me a nudge
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My 13yo daughter Ive also had that intution.. not the same as with my precocious son.. but I get feelings like somethings wrong or somethings happening to her.. I had this feeling for years and disregarded it thinking I was being too sensitive come to find out that something was horribly wrong
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So Im beating myself up for it really bad right now because I knew something was happening and didnt listen. So yeah Ive learned to trust that gut feeling or the Spirits nudging because when I dont.. something happens.
I just let God use me when He needs me.. I believe its intercessory prayer He uses me for.. and the empathy comes with it..
Even more.. I can feel like a wrongness about people.. Like its God telling me to stay away from someone.. Even more than people I can feel it about situations. Its strange.. Ive gotten feelings like that about people that post here.. strange yeah I know. Like I wont even read their posts.. its a sick feeling in my gut that ive learned to trust because when I dont trust that feeling something happens. I believe thats the Holy Spirit just guiding me along keeping me safe.
I get that same feeling from music.. not any specific type.. and looking at lyrics you wouldnt think anything of them.. but its just like a warning to myself to not go there.
People reading this will probably think Im strange.. Im used to it though alot of people think Christians are strange
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oh well
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