Namaste Bob,Aside from Lincoln, Edison, Sanders, etc. there are millions of people in history who tried all kinds of things, over and over again, all their lives, and never had one thing end up right.
You are making it plain that you wish to wallow. I will be here when you change your mind.
If you feel the world is out against you, and things will never change. You are correct.
If you believe the world is evolving consciously every day and just has ebbs and flows and you may just be ahead of the curve in some regards. You are correct.
The difference is what you choose to believe. I cannot not make that choice, your future is contingent on you, not me, and not the populace. You can choose to believe whatever you'd like. But you cannot choose the consequences of your choice.
This is what I choose to believe.